torches and things

a glimpse of the solemn matrimonial rites i recently attended. held at a private beach near my hometown, it was attended by close friends and family members of the couple. my friend planned and orchestrated her dream wedding down to the very last detail - the beach, the flowers, the tropical fruits and food, the fireworks display, the fire dancers, entertainers and musicians, the enchanting torches... even the weather assented to this much anticipated occasion.

it definitely pays to be o.c.

around the bend

a few things i am excited about these days - katy perry manila concert; movie version ng 'where the wild things are'; sem break & going home to the province; beach wedding ng friend ko from college; college reunion; the prospect of a puppy na shitzu; joining the adidas run this month & the timex run (kasama si papa piolo) next month... at madami pang iba...

i'm fine

i just want my old, normal life back. i just want to be able to do my work well, come to class on time, go home and sleep early. i ask for nothing more - i do not even dream of being happy, or of finding true love, or discovering anything special in this life time. i just want to live my life. i know it is not too much to ask. so, i hope you're listening coz i am really getting tired of all this.

fly-me-to-the-moon

i think i badly need a vacation. in support of this theory are the following exhibits:

Exh. A: yesterday was supposed to be a special non-working holiday. pero (no offense to all ninoy fans) di ko talaga naramdaman yun. i was out working the whole damn day (!) at nag-attend pa nga ako ng 2 meetings - isang 8:00 am sa manila at isang 6:00 pm sa makati. alam ko malabo talaga yun to the point of being disrespectful to a national hero, pero wala talaga akong magawa kase that's what i do. unlike the work of most people, my job does not end at 5 or 6 pm on weekdays and it knows no holidays. aargh. pag uwi ko sa bahay, nagprepare pa ako ng mga things to do over the weekend kase feeling ko talaga i should take advantage of the long weekend - which i know isn't normal kase most people would spend it on road trips or the like. but i guess i am not most people. hay.

Exh. B: sa pagmamadali ko kahapon papunta sa isang meeting, me nasagi akong itim na kotse somewhere in osmena highway. but it was actually the other driver's fault kase nagswerve talaga siya while i was just in my rightful lane. considering na nagmamadali ako and i was so sure that the damage was very minor, i just went on my way without bothering to stop. suddenly, nanjan na sa harapan ko ang itim na kotse at sinundan pala ako. then i stopped my car at naghazard na din ako. babae pala ang nagdadrive at me kasama pa siyang isang babae din pero mejo malaki talaga at mukhang marunong mang-away. anyway, sumisigaw sila pareho at pinabababa na ako. i started explaining myself in the most calm and civil manner pero they kept on shouting. sabi bakit daw ako tumatakbo kahit alam kong nakabangga ako etc. medyo naiirita na ako nung sinabi ko: "first of all, you were the ones swerving and you damaged my car. if there's anyone who should be complaining here, it is me. not you. secondly, i knew that the damage was very minor that's why i didn't bother to stop. thirdly, i am in a hurry and i have more important things to worry about. but if you want to complain here and now, that's not gonna be a problem coz i can go anywhere with you. and i am sure i am going to make your day!" hindi naman masyadong aggressive ang driver kase alam kong alam niya na kasalanan niya. pero yung kasama niya talaga ang mejo astig at ayaw patalo. pero natuwa talaga ako nung pagkatapos ko mag explain at lahat, sinabi niya: "hoy wag mo akong ine english english kase nasa pilipinas tayo!" huh? muntik na talaga ako matawa pero pinigilan ko lang talaga kase i know i'd be disoriented. haha. it was quite hilarious. buti nalang they finally gave in and so i left them in peace. hay.

Exh. C: i woke up really early this morning. and then i suddenly found myself saying: sana hindi umulan kase i need to go the office. tapos bigla akong napaisip: what's happening to me?!? i am actually the type who wakes up late and loves to stay home on weekends and holidays. i can't believe i am slowly becoming a workaholic - a monster! nooo...

petty criminal

i am officially a stalker. i have been running on a (more or less) regular basis just so i could accidentally bump into this guy who would usually jog in the same area at exactly the same time after work hours. whoever thought that a crime like this could be so much fun. hehe.

times times

If You Forget Me
I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

truly, madly, deeply

yan ang pinapakinggan (at kinakanta) ko habang ako ay nagjo-jog ngayong hapon. alam ko na hindi naman yun bagay kantahin habang tumatakbo, pero ewan ko ba kung bakit type na type ko siya kanina. maybe, it's because i feel i have accomplished so much work today kaya maganda lang talaga ang mood ko. or maybe, it's because i enjoyed the weather na partly cloudy and cold for the past few days. or maybe i'm so happy kase binigyan ako ng kaibigan ko ng special edition ng magazine na puro johnny depp lang ang laman (photos, filmography & all!). kahapon sabi niya pinapahiram niya lang yung magazine, pero ngayong umaga sinabi niya na i can keep it kase wala naman daw siya regalo sa akin nung birthday ko. salamat ng madami alvin. kung wala ka lang talagang asawa, hinalikan na kita. hehe.